Thursday, January 13, 2011

A moment out of the rabbit hole

Good morning! Does it feel like the world is moving in fast forward? It sure seems that way to me. So far 2011 has been jam packed and lighting like. It seem almost twice as fast as 2010. None the less, we are all hanging on and so far look no worse for the wear.

Even with all of this fast-paced-ness, we still haven't really received any clarity regarding the lesion on Sydney's breast plate. In fact, if anything, as far as that is concerned 2011 has seemed to bring the great cooling off-ed-ness. Honestly, I expect that is a good thing. We really don't want to be the focus of attention. We don't want to be our pediatric oncologist's number 1 priority. Simply put, if we are not her number one priority then we must not be in that bad of shape.

Actually, I still think the biggest issue is that no one knows what to do with this spot. We aren't getting answers because there isn't one - at least an easy one.

So, we will continue to wait.

I guess the fact that everything else is flashing by so quickly is a good thing. It keeps me occupied. You know, if it weren't, I would probably be obsessing on this even more. I am sure I would have whipped myself into a significant frenzy by now. Heck, I might have even earned me a comfy spot at the funny farm. Yes, I know I am that mental.

The bottom line is this.

While it may look, smell and feel like neuroblastoma, it certainly is not acting like it. And, until it does, we may have no other option but to wait. The good news is that there are many other things it could be but, oddly enough, the problem is that we just don't know what they could be.

That is the reality. Think on that one for a while.

In the end, it is time to hop back into the rabbit whole. There is purpose to chase.

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